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Wednesday, November 07, 2007
and I Thought./ 9:56 AM As much as i really HATE being emo. I did. There are still some things that are bothering me. God knows why i think. But i'm still trying to figure something out. A few issues on hand. All i can hope for is that the issues stop coming to me and just leave me alone until i settle all of them then the issues can come again. Even if i did talk about it, the issue is still bothering. And as much as i have talked to the person itself. It's still bothering me. Because i cannot be selfish. I might end up wasting time. And on giving false hopes. Yes. Maybe it's true that i'm not giving myself another chance. Maybe it's true that i'm shutting off to the rest of the world. What is it that i'm really suppose to do. I've really never met with this kinda situation before. And i'm so lost. God damnit. Argh. Rah. I'm actually starting to look forward to tonight. Cause it's my time to escape from reality. But as much as i wanna leave early i don't think i will because of my own reasons. hm. Kinda screwd up actually i think. How my life is. Dang Dang. I am so messed up now. My mind. My heart. Is in a total mess. The past is history. History shall not be repeated. All the stupid things i did in the past. As much as i nearly picked up the call that you gave within like 3 seconds. I thought. Why are called. And i told myself that i'm not going to call back. And i saw the nick popping up when i was online. It seems that the avioding period has ended. But nothing will change. I am happy with the way i am now. Besides the following mentioned earlier. I'm hiding everything about you away, locked up somewhere and never bringing it up again. I've been hearing this alot nowadays that i think too much. TOO MUCH already. hm. I know i have that problem. It's not like something i can control. It'll just come to me. Then i'll just start to think then keep thinking. Then some how or another it'll just stop. Well. On a happier note. I've received a couple of praises recently and i'm happy. Who wont be happy when that person is praised. HAHA. Especially when it comes from someone who you think wont say such things about you. Well. I am waiting for 11am to come. To have my com skills meeting. I HATE BEING EMO. I NEEDA SCRAPE THAT WORD OUT OF MY DICTIONARY AND THROW IT AWAY. arghhhhhhhhh. |
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